I’ve
been seeing my psychotherapist for about six months. Because of past bad
experiences, it took me a long time to be comfortable opening up to him.
I see him for depression and anorexia. The most recent issue we tackled was
a date-rape I experienced at 18. While discussing it, I felt so alone, and
unsupported. I brought it up to him at our next session and he told me that
he is intentionally inconsiderate of my feelings, intentionally harsh with
me, but would not expand on why. I feel very betrayed; I feel like he completely
destroyed me in three sentences; I’ve been very depressed, suicidal,
and not eating since I last saw him. He will not respond to phone calls or
e-mails. I am not scheduled for another session for two weeks, and he has
made it clear he will not be available in the interim. He has mentioned several
times that he wants me to learn to stand up for myself more, but when I ask
for help he turns me down. What gives?
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From the way you describe things, it sounds as if this
“therapist” is trying to conduct his own form of Reality Therapy, like the
“tough love” parents can be told to use on disobedient children. This sort
of treatment can work on children who otherwise refuse to listen to good advice,
but to use it on an emotionally wounded adult is like throwing someone into a
pool and saying, “You need to swim a few laps for discipline.” And when you
cry out, “Help! I don’t know how to swim!” he just walks away, saying, “We
can talk about that in two weeks.”
Now, the truth
is, if you became depressed and
suicidal because
of three harsh sentences, then most likely those three sentences opened up a
pre-existing, deep wound about rejection, and the date-rape was just one insult
on top of something—or multiple somethings—from even earlier in your life.
Consequently, because of all these traumas, you lack experience in being
emotionally trusting and self-reliant, and therefore you can’t just start
standing up for yourself because someone demands that you do so. For your
healing, it is necessary that you be taught about trust and self-reliance
and trained in how to practice them.
This sort of
training can happen in psychotherapy if it is attentive to the
symbolic material
of your unconscious.
Through accurate interpretations, your psychotherapist will gain your
trust, and through respect for the
psychotherapeutic
process, you will begin to trust that your own unconscious is truth that
doesn’t have to be feared. Remember, the unconscious is not “out to get
you”—it’s just raw truth. When you can face that truth without
fear, you can benefit
from its wisdom, and that will be a big step into self-reliance.
So, what gives?
Well, rather than punish yourself for feeling rejected, give yourself
permission to find someone who can teach you properly if your current
psychotherapist isn’t up to the job..
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